Aphasia

If you know a friend or you are in a relationship with someone that has chronic health issues please, please, please understand that that person may not be able to do anything for themselves for days to weeks to months at a time and a large burden is going to fall on you.  Take the time to understand that they didn’t see this as their life. 

I didn’t ask for my body to fail. I listen to my favorite music but can’t dance like I used to. I want to go out to the mall, but can’t walk around easily. I’m not ready to accept my limitations so I try to deny they exist, but they do.

So many tell me “it can’t really be that bad if you are still working and doing everything you do.” The fact is I didn’t know I had a choice. 🤷🏻‍♀️  And…I can’t let this take over my life.

Years in pain, tired and the many changes in me for no reason or apparent reason. Hiding everything from someone else, pretending to be doing better than you are; until it no longer works. No matter how strong you want to be.

Then the moment comes when they tell you what you have. You have mixed feelings: you finally know what you have, but how do you deal with it?

Lack of encouragement, wanting to lay down, taking medication frequently; having a whole pharmacy on top of the nightstand.

Then, the daily responses, “Why did you get so fat?” “I have this great diet,” “If you just go out and exercise.”

“That once beautiful hair of yours now awful and it falls out.”

What happened to you?

This is all true and that’s why I’m sharing it.

Silent and invisible diseases do exist…

When you have an invisible disease it is difficult to argue from your perspective with ignorant people.

Life takes a lot of turns.

Tired of being told:

* Did you go to the doctor?

* Have you tried this?

* Have you tried that?

* I don’t know what else we can do for you…

Yes! I tried and still try everything.

Doctors say this disease is forever. That I will not heal. However, I am not giving up, but I want to make others realize:

* A nap will not cure me but it will help me …

* I am not lazy, I take medication and it sometimes makes me sleepy.

* I am not angry but sometimes cranky with pain.

* I struggle daily with pain, mobility problems, fatigue, the criticism of my environment.

Most frustratingly, people look at me and say, “It can’t be that bad, you look good “

Despite the fact that my body is experiencing excruciating pain everywhere, of course I look good, I always try to look good, it is an “invisible” disease.

This disease affects me physically, mentally and emotionally. Because many diseases cannot be seen, but we feel them.

And they are there … Silent attack but extra painful.

I’m not asking anyone to repost this. 

I’m not looking for sympathy. 

I only want people to recognize…it’s just not easy.



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By Kent Allen

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